Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes...
~ Love Story by Taylor SwiftMany people believe that first love never dies. However, I was not one of those many. I am a firm believer of "first does not always last". I was one who can easily move on with these kinds of heartaches. Do you think I really loved at those times? I think not. If I have gone along without any grave feeling of lingering admiration, could that have been my first love? I know it may be harsh, but I somehow suppose it is merely action carried away with emotion and situation.
However, there is a time in my life where a certain crush stayed inside my mind for too long. Although, at some point, I did not acknowledge my fondness for him, it suddenly reemerged. This was one person I could truly not let go. He is definitely not the first guy that I had a crush on, but I believe this person is my first true love.
We talk at times but we really do not engage in personal conversations. We have a connection but greeting each other is not really a habit. I think this is for the better. I truly think that if I get more than glimpses of him, I will melt down and die. I always feel awkward when he is there, but I feel comfort and glee as well. Sometimes, I think that his eyes follow my moves and during those moments, my heart beats double time although I also think that I am just imagining him staring at me. When I close my eyes, it is usually his face that I see. I always look out of our classroom window just to see if he will pass by, anticipating for the time that I will see him. It feels wonderful, watching him close by.
I know that what I feel for him now is different from what I felt from other boys before. Although I have realized that he will never know what I feel, I would like to express my utmost gratitude to God for letting me meet this person and love him the way I do.
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